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Today is mommy's 70th birthday! Our first one without her! Gosh, I miss her! She is better off.

I saw a lady sitting in a wheel chair yesterday. It made me think of Old Sow. She would not have wanted to live like that and we were headed there. I helped the lady get her umbrella up to block her from the sun.

I am thankful that mommy is no longer suffering! She isn't lonely! She is with the Lord, resting in his arms!

Thank God!

Picture of the week... just because I like it!

I hope you have had a blessed week! :o)

RIP Dale!

Daddy's best friend passed away today. He and Daddy are in heaven together!

Please pray for his family! He was like a dad to the older kids and always looked out for us. He was a great guy!

RIP Dale!

What's going on?

I have been super busy with life. I know I keep putting up pictures and that is it! I have a fall break right now, so I thought I would update.

I have been doing loads of school work, in addition to work, baseball, volleyball, and church. Church hasn't been happening as much as I would like, but some.

My school work is going well. I have been getting excellent grades. I am about to finish my first class and have already started my second. I wanted to take two classes next semester, but we really can't afford to pay for two again. It has been tough this time. I hate that money prevents me from doing two classes, but what can you do?

I am going to spend the next two days working on homework, going to volleyball, an office picnic for Joel, laundry. I am going to be super busy. :o)

For all you who are still reading... Thanks!

My grieving process is good and bad at times. We just passed the six month point since mommy passed away and we are at a year and half since daddy passed. I feel like in six more months it will be better. I have come to the conclusion that I will never stop missing mommy and daddy, but the pain will lessen. Keep praying for us. We are coming up on a difficult time of the year. Mom's birthday, Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years. UGH! I really dread the holidays!

Daddy's best friend is very sick! We have been praying for him. It makes me so sad! Keep him in your prayers too!

I read this saying and really like it....Be the kind of woman that when your feet hit the floor each morning the devil says~~
"Oh Crap, She's up!"

I strive to be a Godly woman, but feel my failures each day!

Ever had a week like this?

My week was okay. Nothing to write home about.

I liked this picture because... if we look hard enough... we can always find someone worse off than we are!

This is my someone has it worse picture! Poor little man!

Every feel like this?

Church

I know going to church is part of being a christian. The word says not to forsake the assembling together. So, my question is WHY is it so hard for me? Since Mommy has died it is so hard for me to be in the presence of the Lord. I realized this last night. I went to church. I haven't been too much since Mommy died. Not because of anything other than busyness. Malakhi is playing travel baseball and those games happen on the weekends. I just find it emotionally painful to be in worship.

I have examined my heart. I don't feel angry. I know Mommy and Daddy were longing to go to heaven. I know they wanted to be with the Lord. I know it had to be the way it is. What I can't figure out is why I feel so much emotional pain when I am in church or even listening to worship songs. I know that the Lord is our refuge. So, why doesn't he feel like my refuge? Maybe it just reminds me too much of my parents. They both loved the Lord with all their hearts and souls. I, also, know I want to make heaven my home. I have no other desire in my heart. So, WHY?

Anyone, please, with any thoughts?